Sunday, June 28, 2009

Janet speaks for first time

What Michael Music Means to Me

Michael Jackson's music has always been a part of my life. I remember being no more than 4 years old listening to my mother's Jackson Five 45s. My mom gave me someof her 45s and bought me a Fisher Price Record Player,so I would stay out her big record player. I remember being 7 or 8 and going to see The WiZ and being awed by his scarecrow.Off The Wall came out when I was 9 and I played that Album out. It is still my favorite to this day. I remember being 10 and selling enough candy so I could earn a 8 track player and I bought The Triumph 8 track by The Jacksons. By the time Thiller came out I thought people finally had woken up to acknowledge the talent that I had seen long ago.

I used to practice dancing like him in my bedroom. I had the curl and all of that too! His music always made me happy. It was able to take me another place when I needed to escape. I guess I should not be sad,but I am. When I listen to his music it still makes me happy. There are some songs that I can't listen to right now,because my eyes will well up,but for the most part it is not hard for me to Jam,which is what he would want everyone mourning his lost to do.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Shanice's Tribute to MJ He's Out of Our Lives

This is such a touching tribute. I think so many people feel this way.


Lisa Maire' statement about Michael

He Knew.
Years ago Michael and I were having a deep conversation about life in general.

I can't recall the exact subject matter but he may have been questioning me about the circumstances of my Fathers Death.

At some point he paused, he stared at me very intensely and he stated with an almost calm certainty, "I am afraid that I am going to end up like him, the way he did."

I promptly tried to deter him from the idea, at which point he just shrugged his shoulders and nodded almost matter of fact as if to let me know, he knew what he knew and that was kind of that.

14 years later I am sitting here watching on the news an ambulance leaves the driveway of his home, the big gates, the crowds outside the gates, the coverage, the crowds outside the hospital, the Cause of death and what may have led up to it and the memory of this conversation hit me, as did the unstoppable tears.

A predicted ending by him, by loved ones and by me, but what I didn't predict was how much it was going to hurt when it finally happened.

The person I failed to help is being transferred right now to the LA County Coroners office for his Autopsy.

All of my indifference and detachment that I worked so hard to achieve over the years has just gone into the bowels of hell and right now I am gutted.

I am going to say now what I have never said before because I want the truth out there for once.

Our relationship was not "a sham" as is being reported in the press. It was an unusual relationship yes, where two unusual people who did not live or know a "Normal life" found a connection, perhaps with some suspect timing on his part. Nonetheless, I do believe he loved me as much as he could love anyone and I loved him very much.

I wanted to "save him" I wanted to save him from the inevitable which is what has just happened.

His family and his loved ones also wanted to save him from this as well but didn't know how and this was 14 years ago. We all worried that this would be the outcome then.

At that time, In trying to save him, I almost lost myself.

He was an incredibly dynamic force and power that was not to be underestimated.

When he used it for something good, It was the best and when he used it for something bad, It was really, REALLY bad.

Mediocrity was not a concept that would even for a second enter Michael Jackson's being or actions.

I became very ill and emotionally/ spiritually exhausted in my quest to save him from certain self-destructive behavior and from the awful vampires and leeches he would always manage to magnetize around him.

I was in over my head while trying.

I had my children to care for, I had to make a decision.

The hardest decision I have ever had to make, which was to walk away and let his fate have him, even though I desperately loved him and tried to stop or reverse it somehow.

After the Divorce, I spent a few years obsessing about him and what I could have done different, in regret.

Then I spent some angry years at the whole situation.

At some point, I truly became Indifferent, until now.

As I sit here overwhelmed with sadness, reflection and confusion at what was my biggest failure to date, watching on the news almost play by play The exact Scenario I saw happen on August 16th, 1977 happening again right now with Michael (A sight I never wanted to see again) just as he predicted, I am truly, truly gutted.

Any ill experience or words I have felt towards him in the past has just died inside of me along with him.

He was an amazing person and I am lucky to have gotten as close to him as I did and to have had the many experiences and years that we had together.

I desperately hope that he can be relieved from his pain, pressure and turmoil now.

He deserves to be free from all of that and I hope he is in a better place or will be.

I also hope that anyone else who feels they have failed to help him can be set free because he hopefully finally is.

The World is in shock but somehow he knew exactly how his fate would be played out some day more than anyone else knew, and he was right.

I really needed to say this right now, thanks for listening.


One of my favorite performances from Michael

Smokey;s statement about Michael

It is always hard to lose a friend. I will miss Michael and all that he brought to the world through his music and his creative genius. I know his legend will live on and the world will miss him dearly."

Smokey Robinson

Janet's statement about Michael's death

Janet's manager Kenneth Crear released the following statement a short time ago, as reported live on CNN:

"Janet Jackson is grief stricken and devastated at the sudden loss of her brother. She is in pre-production for a movie and is flying immediately to California to be with her family."

Thursday, June 25, 2009


I can't belive the news right now. I refuse to believe it actually. Michael Jackson is the best entertainer ever! The raw talent that he has is unmatched. Yes I know I am talking present terms. I told you I'm not facing the new yet. No other performing is able to entertain and take people to another place the way that Michael can. Michael Jackson 1958-2009 Gone too soon

Kiss and Tail : A Hollywood Jump Off

Kiss and Tail is a respsone to The Video Vixen known as Superhead. Ya'll 'member all that stuff she wrote in the her books,well some folks got something to say about it. It is coming out soon and it called a Kiss and Tail, and it is narrated by Wendy Williams, so you know there is going to some dirt on this DVD!

Hear the real, raw truth about the groupie lifestyle from the scene's biggest stars, including Ja Rule, Big Boi, Akon, Juelz Santana, Twista and more, and get the inside story from one of hip-hop's most notorious femmes, Karrine "Superhead" Steffens. Reenactments show how Karrine sexed her way through the hip-hop world, climbing her way up the ladder before crashing to the bottom. Now a bestselling author, she's still kissing and telling, but the huge stars she allegedly bedded are telling their side of the story.
Here is a a trailer.